I’ve been slacking. I can’t even blame being sleep deprived because Edie has been an absolute dream recently! KNOCK ON WOOD that it continues! But I feel mentally exhausted recently and that isn’t something that a bit more sleep will fix. Talking of sleep…
Remember the days when it would be 10/11 at night, sat on the sofa watching a movie and you’d feel your eyes getting heavier. I’d wake up a few hours later, realising it was now 1am and shuffle upstairs and snuggle into bed. Or, I’d just make the decision at 11pm (yep, that was an early night back then) to turn in and head off to bed where I’d be in a magical dream as soon as my head hits the pillow.
Well, that’s a very distant memory! I still have the heavy eyelids, but they stick around all through the day now. The big difference is, I can’t just casually stroll upstairs, get under the covers and fall asleep. My brain doesn’t work like that anymore.
I said goodbye to sleep in the 3rd trimester when it took me a good 20 minutes just to roll over and heartburn was so bad that I’d sleep downstairs, sat up right most of the night. “At least when she’s here, there will be a good reason I won’t be sleeping” I said to myself to mentally prepare for getting even less sleep. With a newborn, I accepted I was very much on her schedule. “Sleep when baby sleeps” is true to a sense, as that is the only time you can sleep! When baby is awake, you’re awake, baby is hungry, you’re the kitchen on legs… and so on.
Edie sleeps 7-7 and now treats me to the whole night through too (no sleep training and NO cio!) But I still wake up just as tired as I did when I went to sleep. You know they say that when a baby wakes up a lot in the night, it might be because their brain is working so hard to process everything, that it keeps them up. What they don’t tell you… is that as a mum, the exact same thing will happen! Edie is currently desperately trying to learn to crawl. I left the baby monitor charging in the living room the other day whilst I quickly popped into the kitchen, I came back and my sleeping baby was now awake, on her hands and knees and facing the complete opposite direction. There’s a time and a place missy! Your bed is not one of them!
Finally back in bed and I’m wide awake again. I’ll just check my phone and google if you can die of exhaustion.
Repeat the next day.